This week I want to share my personal journey to love. I have been contemplating for a while about writing something so personal but with the encouragement of my friends and also him, I am starting a series about this journey that I am currently on. I am not sure how long this series will last because this journey is still happening. I just hope you all can relate and wish me luck.
I first met him at an event earlier this year in January. At the time, I was dating a few but nothing really serious. My urging for love was strong of course because it seems to get that way for me during the holidays. I had a true envy for couples especially seeing all of their Facebook and Instagram post sharing there love for each other. I even saw a few marriages and proposal occur during that time frame.
I was just sitting in my room one day and thinking to myself why not me. I know I am getting up there in age but I don’t look like my age and I think I look pretty attractive. I did gain some weight over that particular year due to a neck injury but nothing to really be concerned about since the weight went all to the right places but anyway I was just asking myself why.
So getting back to January I decided to go out to this event that happens every month. I actually went by myself for the very first time because if I waited on a date take me I was never going to go and my friends all had things to do that day and they really didn’t want to drive since it was a pretty cold that night. The spot was jumping as usual and I was just standing there at the bar enjoying the music when this guy came up to me to say hi. Like my usual self, I turned on the don’t bother me face but he persisted with having a conversation with me and during that conversation a learned a few things about him which was pretty cool but that was about it. We got separated somehow and I didn’t see him the rest of the evening. He even gave me his phone number but I was in such a dating funk at the moment I didn’t really feel like saving his number in my phone at the time. I did notice that he never asked for my number so I guess he wasn’t really that interested in me either.
Boy was I wrong.
After the event, I pretty much went on with my daily life as usual. I felt that I really needed to be by myself for a minute and just reflect on me for a change and not worry about trying to date or find a man out here. I figured that I was all alone for a reason. I felt that I was making bad choices as far as the type of guys I dated. I realized that I really needed to make a change. Stop trying to find those guys that I have always dreamed about and actually find a guy that dreamed about me. A guy that when he looked at me, he saw “Queen” “Potential Wife” “Partner”. I truly believe that I didn’t look at myself as any of those types of women and I really needed to work on that.
Over the next couple of months, I really took the time to focus on me and work out some kinks. I had a few things that I needed to move past from that I was holding on to. It was time to let go and when I did my life changed. Now I can truly say I am that queen, that potential wife, that partner and it was about time I acted that way.
Now you are going to have to tune into for Part 2 on what happens next in this awesome journey. I really hoped you enjoyed Part 1 and feel free to comment below.